Monday, 24 June 2013

It’s rained ever since

About three weeks ago everything in my little world got turned upside down again.  Two months ago I was beyond excited to bring home my new little baby puppy, the cutest, most adorable little thing you have ever seen.  I guess having a puppy is good preparation for having a baby; you get up in the middle of the night with them, look after them and make sure they have everything they need because they are your sole responsibility.  George Jenson was my little baby.  Two weeks ago he sadly passed away.

My saying is that ‘everything happens for a reason’, but right now, I can’t see how this could all be for a reason, maybe one day I will understand, but not right now.  Every day I miss him, it hurts, it’s just so sad that I won’t see him grow up, but no matter what I do there is nothing I can do to change things.  Every day gets a little easier but it’s still always there, and then every now and again I’ll remember what has happened and get upset all over again, I think it’s something I will just have to accept.  I guess it shows how much you can love something if it’s this painful when they are gone.

Normally I write the post title without a second thought, but today I spent a long time thinking exactly what would be fitting, and this one just says it all.  The day after George died it did just start raining, and other than one or two days, it has rained and has been miserable ever since, in every way.

I’m not normally the type of person to tell everyone my business, unless someone asks they won’t know.  I don’t put anything on facebook or go around sharing details of what’s important to me or what I’m thinking with hardly anyone, this blog one of the places I’m most honest, and even then I wouldn’t share most things.  I was all set to just jack it all in, thinking that I don’t want to spend time taking shallow pictures of myself in whatever outfit I’m wearing today.  But then I realised that without this blog I wouldn’t have taken half of the pictures I have, I wouldn’t have the memories to look back on one day.  I wouldn’t have had many photos of George without taking pictures in preparation for this blog, but thankfully I have enough to show him having grown up in the short time he had.  So for now I am going to take a little break from the blogging, but I will be back, just stick with me... please.

Until then, appreciate every little thing and don’t take anything for granted, easier said than done I know.

Love you little man.


Bye for now,


15 comments:

  1. I'm so sorry about your puppy. lots of love xx

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  2. I'm so sorry, I hope you enjoyed your short time with George and I bet he was the happiest little puppy out there x

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  3. I'm so sorry to hear this awful news. RIP little George. My thoughts are with you xxx

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  4. So sorry to about George :( it's so awful xx

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  5. Oh my "Fragile Bird", how sad. Take all the time you need, we will still be here. But remember life doesn't end; it will be hard and it will suck at times. Enjoy the photos, make a momento - a little book or something to remember him by.

    He came into your life and brought joy - remember that.

    stephanie

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  6. Aww Helen, I am so sorry! That is such sad news, he was such a wee cutie! Hope you enjoyed the short time you had with George and you will have a tonne of wonderful memories with him too. Thinking of you, lots of love xxx

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  7. Hey Helen, this is very sad news upsetting in fact I can feel your hurt :( I lost my cat a year ago and it is still upsetting as I got him when I was little as a kitten :'( you should keep at your blog though as it will keep you focused its hard not to think about it but if you do you will keep upsetting yourself its best to keep yourself busy. Its a sad thing and even more so when its unexpected and so young too! I hope everything works out for you and just remember that it was nothing to do with you its just nature I guess some things can not be explained but you show so much love and that's all that matters. The weather has been very miserable and tbh its making me feel very tired recently and unmotivated I just hope you find a way through this hopefully better weather will come soon so you can think clearer xx

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  8. I'm so sorry to hear this happened. Sending all my positive vibes and happy thoughts. All the best xo

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  12. so sorry to hear about this! i hope you are feeling a bit bitter by now. i just got two kittens and am realizing how much work they are - but i'd be torn up if i lost them.

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  13. So sorry to read about the loss of your little man Helen, what a shame! I loved reading your excited post when you brought him home. Hopefully the recent sunshine will help you get back to your 'everything happens for a reason' motto, as difficult as I'm sure it will be!
    xx
    Jenny

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