It’s rained ever since

About three weeks ago everything in my little world got turned upside down again.  Two months ago I was beyond excited to bring home my new little baby puppy, the cutest, most adorable little thing you have ever seen.  I guess having a puppy is good preparation for having a baby; you get up in the middle of the night with them, look after them and make sure they have everything they need because they are your sole responsibility.  George Jenson was my little baby.  Two weeks ago he sadly passed away.

My saying is that ‘everything happens for a reason’, but right now, I can’t see how this could all be for a reason, maybe one day I will understand, but not right now.  Every day I miss him, it hurts, it’s just so sad that I won’t see him grow up, but no matter what I do there is nothing I can do to change things.  Every day gets a little easier but it’s still always there, and then every now and again I’ll remember what has happened and get upset all over again, I think it’s something I will just have to accept.  I guess it shows how much you can love something if it’s this painful when they are gone.

Normally I write the post title without a second thought, but today I spent a long time thinking exactly what would be fitting, and this one just says it all.  The day after George died it did just start raining, and other than one or two days, it has rained and has been miserable ever since, in every way.

I’m not normally the type of person to tell everyone my business, unless someone asks they won’t know.  I don’t put anything on facebook or go around sharing details of what’s important to me or what I’m thinking with hardly anyone, this blog one of the places I’m most honest, and even then I wouldn’t share most things.  I was all set to just jack it all in, thinking that I don’t want to spend time taking shallow pictures of myself in whatever outfit I’m wearing today.  But then I realised that without this blog I wouldn’t have taken half of the pictures I have, I wouldn’t have the memories to look back on one day.  I wouldn’t have had many photos of George without taking pictures in preparation for this blog, but thankfully I have enough to show him having grown up in the short time he had.  So for now I am going to take a little break from the blogging, but I will be back, just stick with me... please.

Until then, appreciate every little thing and don’t take anything for granted, easier said than done I know.

Love you little man.

Bye for now,